Has it really been almost 4 years ?

Back in 2004 I was pretty much a punk with a tablet.

But now.. well I don't know what now is. But I continue to wander an idle circle, building up skill sets and soon forgetting them. Stretching myself too thin and then sitting idle for days on end. Having nothing to believe in but the distant star of my projects and even criticizing the established norms that the greats have managed to erect.

A weeaboo has it better than me, cause he can argue relentlessly about something no one would care for, a whole culture away. Man, a generation ago, those guys would be activists. But we swim in a schizzophrenic fantasy, one after another. But who am I to talk, I'm designing a table top RPG after all.

I teeter at the deep end. Now I'm just counting down when Cartoon Network is gonna ruin Gurren Lagann for me. But who am I to talk, that show is meant to be shared with bright eyed kids after the adults have thoroughly spummed on it's awesomeness. Yeah, I was a Viral fan too.

There was a boy who approached me once while I was drawing in a starbucks, waiting for a friend to get off her shift. It was a comic project and I had to fill in some pages. And he went on and on about how excited he was with Naruto when he saw my stuff. You know, that zabuza bridge episode.
You think this would be the most annyoing thing ever, but really it was quite novel and cute to see in real life. His mom had to come up and apologize for him but I really wasn't offended at all. And the internet is such a different beast. Everyone's assuming that the person typing this is an anime character or a super model, a kid that looks just like them, or Chris Hansen. You don't see the bright eyed kids often, thats why its easy to call them fagboats once in a while.

I have no stances on anything. Because I know that there are far too many uncertainties and contradictions
if we were to be seen in a universal lens.

Art is that bi polar lady. Fuckers dont know why its so good. I went in a school just to learn this single fact. And it was the most novel thing, its a school thats been around for 300 years and they finally came up with the one good answer that I've been given in life: We dont know what art is.

Videogames are being barred by the high society cause they dont want their limited culture to be stretched out like a goatse. The concept of high art is an illusion anyway, an illusion similar to money.

But thats fine, it keeps us fed. Just dont tell anyone that money doesn't exist. Or everyone will end up faggoting up buddhism as well. Or stop making Wii games.

No I'm not trying to prove anything. No this isn't a rant. I kinda got tired of looking at my old journal, and the journals before that, and the ones before then right up to the point where I was just a punk that could believe in ANYTHING.

And I found out that I was far more interesting as a journal account back then.

Hah, I should be drawing.




See you all at Chicago tommorrow.